Looking back over some of the incredible guys I’ve met and filmed with over the last year or so, I realised there’s one side of my sexuality I’ve actually said surprisingly little about. Recently I wrote about what catches my eye when I’m topping. But despite the fact that most people probably know me better as a bottom, I’ve never really talked about what makes me want to bottom.

One of the biggest things I’ve learned about bottoming is that you have to really want it. When I’m completely attracted to the man I’m with and trust the chemistry between us, something changes. I stop thinking so much and become completely present in my role.

Funnily enough, for someone who makes adult content for a living, I’m actually kind of traditional. And I think that plays out in the sex I have, both on screen and in real life. For me so much of it comes down to polarity. I love the contrast between two men who know exactly what they want from each other.

I don’t necessarily think of bottoming as passive, but there is an element of surrender to it for me. Being in bed with someone is a very primal moment and there’s something incredibly hot about being with a guy who brings a strong, masculine energy and makes me instinctively want to meet him from the other side of that dynamic.

I think that’s where dick size comes into it too. More than anything, I love the contrast. When I’m smaller, or when the guy taking me is bigger than me, there’s something about that difference that feels incredibly beautiful and clear. Almost pure.

And then there’s presence. Looking back at these photos from my collab with Rocky Unleashed, I think that’s what they capture that so well. Rocky has this extraordinary ability to make you feel like you’re the only other person in the universe, let alone the room. When he’s with you, he’s with you. That kind of attention allows me to open up emotionally and, in turn, physically.

Looking back at these photos from my collab with Rocky Unleashed, I think that’s what they capture so well. Presence, polarity and surrender. Two men completely into each other and completely comfortable with the roles they’ve chosen.

More pics from my shoot with Rocky are available on my blue page, and featuring this one from my back catalogue this weekend.